real fast...

well my fasting has not yet happened... everytime i  get almost through the day something happens andi just fail miserably at it... today was no different except i was doing so well but my son was home sick... my youngest he was throwing up all night and so today i had to get meds filled and while we were out he was like mommy im hungry... i asked what he wanted and he says olive garden - one of my weaknesses! i love their salad and soup... and of course their stuffed mushrooms! he loves their bread and so with his tummy being sick lastnight i figured the bread would actually be good for him - so we went... grrrrr... ok so after i purged we went to get the meds - they were ready and i got some junk to snack on on the way home - i needed to make sure i had gotten all the og stuff out... well when we got home i remembered - my middle son was at the school waiting for me cuz hehad tutoring! crap! so i left my youngest with my oldest and bolted out to get my middle which means i have junk sitting in my gut - i keep eating slowly so i can keep the food from digesting too much... get my son and race home to purge... i was so exhausted i layed on the bed and fell asleep! i  didnt wake until 545! omg i didnt even make dinner or anything! thank goodness i had some simple microwave things and the boys had made for themselves rather than wake me... so no it is getting late and im headed to take melatonin and some miralax and head back to bed and when i get up tomorrow - i hope my self will is better and stronger than it was today!