idk anything anymore...

well ABC has been a HUGE epic failure to the utmost of failures! so im letting it pass... i had changed my mind and decided i was going to just b/p until i couldnt anymore and of course until my holiday box of treats got here... it FINALLY came today and it is gone already! there wasnt much in there - actually thought there would be more oh well... its all good! i am still waiting for another box and i hope it will come tomorrow although i feel as though my b/p days might be over. i also got my freaking period which it has been giving me the worst of cramps it possibly can... in addition - weight gain like no tomorrow - i am not happy at all! so this will end my blog for today and tomorrow is day one of what i will hope will be a difference and a fast... however - if i get that other box and i decide to b/p then it will start fresh after... i just wish all had come at the same time so it could deffinately been done!