Anyway so i b/p 2x more, had my session with G. White and now im exhausted, laying in bed & hope to nap...
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
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you've come too far to take order from a cookie!!
this just ain't right!
always remember this...
diagnosed as AN w/ BN tendencies - restrict, b/p, other behaviors of AN/BN. I have AN/BN - but I am not pro-Ana. i am trying to define me other than AN/BN. the posts are my thoughts - i need to make them visible. sometimes i write in a journal & sometimes here is better. if u follow my journey i hope u benefit in a positive way & know if u have an ed u are not alone. don't ask for tips, tricks or help with trying to "get" an ed - i won't help someone get sick.
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About Me
- 'Krystal'
- I think the page description says it all... NOT pro-Ana; not giving tips, tricks or helping others get sick or sicker. Here for my own recovery and positive support to anyone no matter where they may be with their ed...
I am not pro-Ana but I still have my thoughts and fears!
you've come too far to take order from a cookie!!
its all about change now...
I am trying to make things different. I am trying to change. I've said this in the past but many things just always stayed the same - my thinking for example. So I am trying to make things better - I can't give up. I have this blog I've ranted and raved and said a lot of raw things but they were my thoughts and emotions at the time so I'm going to keep those posts in th archive.
however, the new blog address is now wannachange2011 because that is my ultimate goal - to finally keep my footing and make the change towards my health and recovery...I hope you'll continue to follow my journey...
however, the new blog address is now wannachange2011 because that is my ultimate goal - to finally keep my footing and make the change towards my health and recovery...I hope you'll continue to follow my journey...
my fears continue to grow!
this just ain't right!
Only determination will get u to ur goals!
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3 comments:
I am glad to read that you are trying to work on "recovery". I was worried when I didn't see anything. Sorry to read that someone betrayed you, that is never good. I look forward to reading about your journey. You can do it.
Thanx Lori...sometimes I just get into those moods where I can't write or I can't get online to blog...other times I feel like I really don't matter so y even try and y even care...other times I see the small glimmer of hope so I push forward to get my toes wet in the world of the unknown...then again @ times I feel so alone and like noone is here, reading or learning/joining my journey so its a waste of time...anyway thanx for replying...glad to know I have one person at least to keep posting for and be accountable too!
Krystal..I enjoy reading what you have to say and I just feel so bad, I just want to give you a hug. I guess what your going through is going to take baby steps and you'll be fine. I'm just glad to read your not b/p as much any more. As some people tell me, if it gets bad take a step back and just breath.
:o)
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