as long as u just do give up...

(1:25pm)
then i guess it is not a complete failure? well the past 2 days i have manage to only bp 1x each day... i guess that is at least some improvement right?
so all night i was up and down - kept needing to pee! good thing means not too dehydrated right? i drank a cup of water everytime i went to to bathroom to make sure - i hate those headaches! so i got up at 515 this am to pee and decided to take vitamins and med then go back to bed - so thats what i did... i got out the bed at 930 i just couldnt lay there any longer.. i was tired but restless and awake since 845 so oh well... got online and started my homework... logged into my messenger to talk to hubby but mostly just doing my work, emails and online survey... my computer is going so slow and missing half my letters when i type - its really frustrating and time consuming - a HUGE trigger right now as well! ugh! so i think this post will end for now and im gonna go laydown and read a book rather than cave into mia right now.

hmmm what next?

so what does this mean? well my boys are STILL sick! have been out of school ALL week! the oldest has a bad cough and got aome meds today, my middle has 'an extremely angry ear' another words a really bad infection and the youngest got some antinausea medication to take when he feels sick so hopefully he can start holding down some solid food... we will see what happens but i am not thinking they will go to school tomorrow seeing as the youngest just vomitted is dinner and the oldest cant stop coughing and already used over 3 boxes of tissue today... the middle has a low fever and is supposed to have the meds in his ear 4x a day - cant do that if he is at school... ugh... one more day i guess might as well let em rest right?
i have my assignment due on sat for the team and ive asked mates for help - no response as yet and my section is supposed to be turned in tomorrow... grrr....
i have a headache tonight - ive had all day acutally... i thought i would make the whole day with not eating and nearly did... problem was we sat at the urgent care for 3.5hrs and then had to get the meds filled and the boys were starving and i needed to feed them while the little one felt he could eat... so ya i bp once today which is still way better! the weight had gone up from the soda binge the other night but is slowly going back down - it is nearly back to the 118 now so hope it goes even lower this week...idk if im gonna fast or not - i may just do some simple liquid only diet - drinking premade shakes that r 110cals each and all i have to do is open and drink... will require less work and no kitchen so it may be my best option to start with in getting away from mia... idk but we will c what tomorrow brings when it gets here i guess...
night all and im sorry for being M.I.A.!