death by anxiety?

645pm 07 dec, 2011
MOOD/EMOTIONS: ANXIOUS AS HELL, worried

well its done. i wrote the letter - like 4 pages, and i gave it to hubby after he had dinner and i went to shower... he hasnt said anything to me - im not sure what he is feeling right now...normally im good about reading him but this time im very blocked... not sure if by him or from my anxiety though.

so in the morning i have to go to my psyche person and i need anxiety meds... ive been out about a week now and im afraid its killing me! i feel like iwont make it till the appointment tomorrow let alone friday...ugh

ive managed to not eat anything else today but i did drink a water bottle. i was goin to get powerade zero but they were too exspensive right now so i settled for propel zero... its safer to me anyway...

went to penny's and exchanged my jeans also got another pair an 2 nice fleece tops and a pair of cute grey sox with penguins on em! yay - love my new sox! i love all my sox!

made burgers and potatoe salad for dinner tonight, no complaints on burgers but my youngest said he didnt like the potatoe salad... oh well guess i cant please em all... i didnt have anything so today remains at 1x early this am so day 1 ends in the morning around 6am...im not worried - i can do this...im nt even hungry...

so im doe for tonight i want to go laydown and watch taps with hubby -if he wants to watch with me... then i want to drift into a deep sumber and no wake from being startled, having bad dreams or frm feeling like i cant breath... then to only wake when my alarm goes off...

so goodnight... and ill be back tomorrow...