im scared!

09 dec, 2011 friday 97

MOOD/EMOTIONS: ANXIOUS, scared, worried, afraid, uncertain, a little hopeful

ok today is the day when everything changes and i am scared as hell... i have this appointment with the therapist at noon today with my husband and he is going to learn a lot of new things that he is "aware" of but doesnt really know...im like an old dog - i am rigid and i hate changes... i prefer things the way i know them and just keep them going... however with this - that is not an option... so the anxiety is quelling again and the meds i took were helping but seems like it is building again...
im shaking like crazy and im cold... i have a long neck sweater on and pants and shoes and sox but it doesnt seem to be doing to much... i wish i could sit in a hot shower now but my husband should be home soon from his dr appointment and then we ar headed to richmond to get some Christmas shopping done - hopefully...