and so today has been shitty... i was doing good... i made it until 1230 - with nothing but 10oz of tea... then i got a message about the base being attacked and my hubby was talking about how he needs to drop 20lbs and well there was my damn triggers... i was binging and then toilet dating before long... so irritated! i was like - ok this is ok - its only once... i can move on and just no more today... WRONG! so i had to take my son to court for a fight he got into even though he didnt fight back and was not at fault - trigger number 2! i had no clue what was going to happen and once it was over it didnt matter my nerves were so shot i came home and binged and then purged...grrrr... ok not too bad 2x and the day was still early... however had to do dinner for the boys and they were complaining and i was already stressed and it just lead to yet ANOTHER bp cycle! ok i thought ill brush this off start fresh tomorrow.. work it off in zumba tonight - no big deal... WRONG AGAIN! im supposed to go to zumba, we had 2 stops to make first - no big deal plenty of time... we make stop one then stop 2 we have to wait for the manager and he takes forever! thn we go to get the exchange backpacks, my son gives me assitude and well we ended up late by 7 min. they locked the classroom door and i could not go in! i was so pissed i got my other son from the kids area and just left... came home and well bp AGAIN! i am so sick of this shit! my goal is a fasting plan i have with a friend... i really hope i can do it... im taking lax again tonight then just hoping i can be stronger tomorrow than i was today... im such a fucking failure!
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You'll do better 2moro..I have faith in you.
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