my intentions of this blog are NOT to encourage or to motivate ANYONE into a lifestyle of self hatred and disgust. nor is it meant to be a motivation to help anyone to lose weight or to tryto 'become' ana or mia... in my opinion ana and mia are NOT a choic... we are predisposed with the disorders and they develop according to how we are raised and the environment we live in as well as events that may or may not occur in our lives... for me there is more to it than it is just from past abuse... so yeah i was abused - sexually more times than one can count and by more than one person. i was verbally abused by a step parent and traumatized through his drinking and tantrums... i lived in foster care and i was forced into family therapy that i hated with a passion and refused to participate in. i eventually got married and moved out. i was unaware that by this time i was already my worst enemy and that i was no longer a person but my disoreder and ther is no way around it. eventually i will go fully into recovery - i hope. but for today - i am still in this life and i am not about to stop... i am just trying to change some of the behaviors to less drastic and dangerous ones... please dont come to me for tips or tricks - you wont find any on this blog... its not for that... it is merely for my thoughts, vents, rants, raves and even if i feel like it - my tears.
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