being broke really sux...

well im so broke and idk what im gonna do... i need to go get groceries - but i hate, no i despise writing checks... grrr... so it doesnt matter i suppose - im gonna go to the store and well attempt to write one and hope it goes through... if not well then i guess shopping is out till tuesday... if it works... well lets just say there will be food in the house and that is both good - an bad... im not feeling like i need to b/p im just feeling like if i have the stuff i might or might not... not having the stuff makes me feel trapped and i think thats par of my feelings of anxiety right now... my chest really hurts and im feeling anxious... also i think partly becuz well ive not had anything to even drink yet today and also i still have not used the bathroom proper... its been a week - im getting concerned and tired of the bloaty backed up feeling...im hoping lax are not in the future again but this is really getting uncomfortable! so im gonna try some coffee again this am and see what happens... if it works - yay! if not then well will see what happens in the next few days to determine what will be the outcome for me... more later...