its already too late...

so i couldnt do it - i caved... i went downstairs and i ate some mac n cheese with a few pieces of hot dogs then some veggie corn dogs minis - i purged then went back and has sme broccoli veggie bites and cottage cheese with cinnamon and splenda in it and purged again... i drank a cup of apple juice and came up to my bathroom to purge completely and the acid came up - now i feel a little better but my chest is still burning... i can deal with that...
im about to take some melatonin - it says to take 20min prior to going to bed and i plan to be in bed at 8. boys have not only exams but half day tomorrow and the test of the week - i gotta be able to manage and cope and try to be strong! i would have made it but that acid - the damn antacids didnt do anything! i think it was over produced from no b/p... i know that messes the acid levels up bad so i dont know what im gonna do to fix it but at least i hope ill be able to sleep tonight! maybe tomorrow if i dont fast i will try to keep something down??? idk yet i did keep 60cals down this am so i guess thats a step up?