well hmm....

so i got my period really REALLY bad! i mean the cramps so bad my back hurt so harshly it was pain to even try to move... yet i managed to get to the pawn shop and get a little money to get some milk and cheese for the boys... came home and totally b/p a total of 4x yesterday... not too bad i guess considering the past weeks but deff not what i had planned... so i weighed yesterday in the am i was 119.8

SO GROSS! THIS WAS 121 STILL BLOATY!

then throughout the day of course fluids and retention (thanx period bloat!) i weighed at bedtime - 123! omg! i knew part of it was the 2qtof tea i drank right before bed though so didnt freak out too much... it would go right through me right? yep! i had to pee 3x lastnight and this am i had dropped down to 118.6! so i am not thoroughly happy but i am a little less unhappy since it did go down and in fact dropped a lb!
so ya...
well it is 1030 am and so far i have already been productive despite my cramps! i have showered and shaved my hairy logs for legs and my armpits which seemed to be monkey pits! haha! just kidding - but they felt really bad and i needed to get it done so i finally did! ive also already responded to my 2 required responses for my class and begun to work on team and ind. papers. i need to get them done if i plan to lax tomorrow! so here goes - lets have a successful day!
PLEASE dont let me get triggered!
oh and as for personal pics (besides the one above from the other day) ... well i dont know if i will be adding any new ones for a while... i feel so disugsted with the amount i have gained even though i know most was the sea salt reaction and now period... laxing tonight shoulw bring me to close if not under the 111 mark so this will be a grand thing! i will be back where i was before the damn salt did its trickiness! i will win this just wait! i will make my goals no matter how much it takes from me and no matter the distance i have to go to do it! oh and finally - i said i did the taxes - well they wont be here till the 4th but once they get here - things will be under control financially finally and i can maybe get myself on track! finances are a HUGE trigger for me - knowing they will be tamed allows ana to say hey lets do this right! so here goes - another day but where's my dollar?

IVE GOT MY GOAL LIST AND SCREW THE WISH LIST - IMA DO THE GOALS!