miralax? metamicil? benefiber? chia seeds? which lax do i use? well seems NOTHING is doing anything now so i am thinking swf again this am... i didnt do anything yesterday but miralax 2x and NOTHING! i am feeling very bloated and backed up and just unhappy with everything!
i feel like such a lost hopeless cause - a piece of trash not even worth recycling... i know some people wont agree - but i cant help the thoughts that race through my mind...i was really wanting to lose all this weight like RIGHT NOW and so far it isnt happening! i think i may run and get the supplies i dont have and try yet again the master cleanse...since the swf is working for me now - maybe that will too? i guess it is a mater of me making myself STICK to it! i knwo the first few days are the worst - right now the first few days suck because all i want to do and all i can think about is bp...however - i have homework to do and a zumba class i would like to go to this am... there is some othr class tonight in its place so idk if i will do that or not - idk if i can even do zumba this am seeing as i will be doing the flush... either way - im gonna do SOMETHING and i WILL make it work! i know how many times have i said good bye to mia only to let her back in? beats me but you know the saying if u say something enough eventually u will believe it and make it happen? well i guess thats my goal!
so on top of all this - my son is staying home again - my 11yr old seeing as again he has something going on with that tummy of his... i took him to the dr last week and he was doing better i thought - thing is he has lost more weight and is getting super thin - im worried about his electrolytes too he keeps using the toilet way too much - poor thing! ok so well i guess i really need to get these boys to the bus and home for this flush to get my day going! hope everything goes well and i can stay strong...right now im still craving french toast but well im not gonna let that get me down right now! i still have goals and i still have labs to be drawn this week... was supposed to be monday but with the holiday they said i can come tuesday - maybe i play hookey and go friday! haha! anyway - more later!
oh boy... so today was not a good one... i ended up doing the flush and well it cleaned me out but i managed to eat and purge way too many times... i couldnt find the syrup at first so that was a huge trigger - when i finally got it it was too late... oh well.... i bake a chole chicken and deboned and refrigerated it along with a 12lb ham! those were some good binges though! anyway - i have the worst headache right now but i dont care - getting ready to do the flush here soon then again tomorrow in the am... i am going to make this work! i got the cleanse things as well and have no plans for tomorrow except getting my boys hair cuts and somehow finding some more money since i spent it all today on groceries! no pics today i just dont feel like looking or searching so for now - its goodnight and i promise to try and post tomorrow!
Friday, January 14, 2011
how many times have i said good bye to mia only to let her back in? im not sure what i wanna do???
Posted by 'Krystal' at 1/14/2011 08:19:00 PM
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hey - I've been reading your blog for a while now, and I saw how you had mentioned that your son was getting super thin and was using the toilet a lot. I was thinking that maybe he has ciliac disease? you should go and check to see if he is gluten intolerant. just a suggestion - I'm no doctor :) I hope he feels better soon!
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